Sunday, December 27, 2009

Saturday suppose to be my OFF day..

And i should be enjoying myself with my dear band members at

Woodland St41,where we been invited to perform for the wedding.

Start at 2pm and end at 9pm.

So reach there 2pm sharp.Sat there,chit chatting for awhile

before they start jamming.I have the strong feeling that i gonna

work later.But i keep denying about it as i really dont want to work.

Im so shag as im too tired.I just want to relaxs

and enjoy myself for that particular off day.

4pm sharp.Feka text me saying that no staff will be working.

I really hope there will be operation for SOS although there will

be 3shows.. But still...

l have to rush down to work for the very last minute.

But time check its already 5pm!Have to start at 5.30pm!

All i think,i have to reach die-die before 6pm and best part its raining.

So end up,ask Abah to lent me some cash,but he being the best Abah,

he gave me $20 for cab fare.$15 for myself.Thanks alot Abah..!

So yes..Hail a cab,and rush that Taxi Driver to hurried down to Sentosa..

Still the same bloody problem,lack of manpower..

But......We still hit our target sales...heheheh

posted by faezahsamidi, 3:30 AM.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

A Remarkable day for DIGIPHOTO as all sites are making money..
Even SOS the only site which have the fucking low sales,hit 1K today..
Whee~~ Im such a happy kid.

Although down with 4 working staff
without Uncle James there, we still manage to hit our target handling
with 3shows as today is Christmas.Woohoo..!!

With me handling the Oscar sales,and Feka handling Amphi sales…
Together with Irfan and Izzat helping both of us out..

We still able to strive..

Tomorrow will be another long day for SOS..
Still same problem,lack of Manpower…

And Uncle will be at Mt.Faber again.
Haiz..When will this problem end uh?

Whatever it is,im happy today.Thats it.

posted by faezahsamidi, 2:52 AM.

Friday, December 25, 2009

How i miss spending the time together with my lovely Bapak.Where we can talk openly of any issues.Although he's the type of person who always give you the impression of "Bo-Chap" and will interrupt to whatever i said and i will be irritate by his behaviour.But i know deep down he still love me though.No matter how busy he is,he will make time for me.Like how he will travel all the way to ITE Bedok just to fetch this daughter of his from school and sent her to work at Sentosa.

Eversince the holiday till now,i still dont have the chance to meet him although we stayed in one house.How to when he's asleep when i reach home?I would probably still in Wonderland when he woke up to do Subuh Prayers?When i woke up,only Mak were there accompany by my small niece and sister's maid.

Even to Mak,we seldom talk to each other like last timeUsually she would whine about how tired she was and i would just listen to her crap and laughing about it.If the house was silent,either she's out or she's asleep.She will keep asking me,"Bila off day ja?Kau ni asik keje je,tak kahwin la kau..kahwin dgn keje sudah" Although she's loud,but thats the way she is.I could only smile and giggle to what she said.And my mind will answer, "Keje hari-hari tapi tak kaya-kaya.." Hahahahah.....

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Work really occupy my entire life.The good thing like Abah told me,i seldom Lepak like i used to do last time.I would just concentrate on my working life and school.But i realised,it getting from bad to worst.Even my friends kept whining ask me to find time to spent with them.

Haiz..I would done so if i could find a specific time and day to spend my entire time with the people that revolve around me.Im so sorry..Not to promise anything.But i will try my best.

Dear Lovely Parents;

Im sorry i cant be a good daughter to both of you.Doakan lah yang terbaik untuk anakmu semoga beliau menjadi insan yang berguna dan dapat menjaga mu di hari yang mendatang.Bukan maksud ku untuk menghindari keluarga,namun kerjaya memadamkan segalanya.

-Faezah Anak Samidi Sariah

posted by faezahsamidi, 2:14 PM.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Am i being sensitive or am i being defensive?

Should i just ask of should i just keep mum?

Im not sure of myself..Haiz...

Been keeping to myself about it for so long.

Im not sure if its just my own feeling or stuff..

Each time i went there,you are not like what i knew.

You used to ask me about my family,work and etc.

But now,you would probably ask me what i want and
you did your stuff. Thats it.

We rarely talk.I know we seldom have the topic to talk,

but you totally diff right now.You avoiding me.
Or maybe, you just ignoring me.

I make the effort to meet you even i have the hectic schedule,

i still make time just for you.I dont want him to keep saying that

i dont pay attention to you.

By all means,i try my very best to show that i cared for you.

Do you know how hard it is?

The moment you just walk off and left me and him,

I feel so bad.Really bad.

I tried to convince myself saying that,

Maybe you're just plainly tired.

You dont have enough rest and stuff.

Am i the one at fault?Am i to be blame?

Are you mad at me?

Or Maybe....

You dont like me talking to him?

You hate me for me close to him?

Is that what you feel all this while?

Haiz..I know where i stand..

Can you pleassee dont do this to me?

Im very Sorry..

Very Very Sorry..

posted by faezahsamidi, 2:33 AM.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Saturday is coming.There will be 3show at SOS.

Gonna be a long day for us.Will be going home late.And etc.

The main problem is.

I DONT HAVE ENOUGH STAFF!!.

Isn't that great..I only have 3 working staff on that particular day

PLUS.3 shows.PLUS.There will be alot of tourist.

PLUS.I still cant find people to help.

At least, i need 5 staff on that day.

Need to find another 2 staff..

I can actually forsee what gonna happen later.

I gonna crack my head!ARGH!

posted by faezahsamidi, 12:57 PM.

It Gonna be a long post.

DIGIPHOTO.

Im so stress up when it comes to scheduling...
I jolly well need to get staff to work..
And make sure i have enough staff everyday..

For the past few weeks were fine. But today,was the worst day ever.
I cant get staff to work for me. I so fcuk up.Im down with 2 staff.
Left me,Uncle and Aisyah.

Everything went well for me and Uncle.

But end up,he mad at me as Aisyah had not turn up although

the clock gonna strike 8pm!

Show gonna end pretty soon, she;s not around.

And best part,we have tons of pictures to be sort out..

A total of 162 pictures had not been displayed at the spec board.

Haiz....He pushed me to give Aisyah a call,but she didnt answer.

 Give Chris a called,but he answered me,

"She went down already.She be there soon."

He knew i dont have staff.He knew show gonna end soon.

He knew,our place need sales.

But, why must he being so self-centred??

He always think of his Merlion sales.

He let Aisyah down at 8pm!!WTF??!!

 If thats the case, He should have just ask Aisyah to go home

instead of coming down to SOS. Why must he hold on to Aisyah

when he can actually did the closing by himself??

Although we make some sales, but still we cant manage!

Im so hurt by Uncle's words.

Im so hurt by his reactions.

Im damn hurt.

Am i at fault?

Am i such a lousy staff that i cant get staff to work?

Yes..I broke down.I cant help it.

Infact,as i type for this post,im crying.

Yes,im a cry baby.

Seriously,i cant take it.This is the fcuking 3rd time he did this.

  I want to prove Uncle that i will be strong enough to handle this.

But each time I want to prove him,I will initially need his shoulder to cry on.

Althought he claim that im not at fault.Deep down i know he's mad at me.

"For the past two years at SOS,

I have never had only two staff working..Haiz...

I Give Up Lah.."

Thats what he said before he walk off
to do selling for the 2nd show.I kept mum.

I dont why.But i just feel that,im at fault.

We didnt talk to each other till ends work.

He just walk off after bag check.

He didnt even say "bye" or raise up his hand as usual.

I feel bad.So i call him up..

He stood there waiting for me.

But before i could say anything,i cant hold back my tears.

He's there for me or maybe US (digi staffs).

He dont blame me for everything.

Haiz...Only god knows how i feel.

I really cant handle SOS without Uncle..

I hope miracle happens and we can have Uncle back like last time.

posted by faezahsamidi, 4:05 AM.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Deepest condolences to both

Arwah Syaffiq and Afiq family...

Allah lebih menyayangi mereka.

Hanya iringan doa yang dapat kami sampaikan.

Semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat

dan mereka ditempatkan bersama orang-orang

yang beriman dan dikasihi Allah s.w.t

Amin.Al-Fateha 

posted by faezahsamidi, 1:03 AM.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Band Practice as usual on last saturday.
2nd keyboardist were not there.
Or maybe i could just say, he won't be with us again.
This is due to some misunderstanding or jealousy that arose between them.
Im not so sure how they start off,but what told me really makes me wonder..
Not sure of how his attitude is,but what Abah told me, he have the Big Ego with him.
Well,everyone have their own ego.It all depends on how you handle and express it yourself.

All i can say,he's a good man.He play his music with his passion and most importantly the feel.
Yes he did told me his not happy with the band performance during practice recently..
but i thought he was just passing some remarks like what Abah usually did.
I do agree with what he said last week when we actually on the way back home.
But if i were analyze what he said,I just think taht his so narrow minded.
As,Cik Mamat is at time childish with his lame jokes.But without him,all of us were dead.
Well,Cik Rahman should just frankly told us that he's not happy with us,and we could have just
stop with our lame jokes.Or maybe,he shouldn't have to take it so hard till you keep it to yourself.
Haiz..He should have known Cik Mamat childishness... 

This is what Abah shared with me on our way back in Train.And at the same time,
Abah think maybe Cik Rahman was just jealous of him.Well,abah is damn talented.

He can play Drum,Keyboard,Violin and Of couse his forte,Guitar.

He can play various kinds of music genre.I salute him.And most importantly, Abah can read Notes not only Chords. And im not demoralizing Cik Rahman,But the fact is, Cik Rahman didnt know how to read Notes.And maybe what abah said is true,he simply jealous of Abah.

Well,Abah is so well known around his peers.He's involved with other groups.

His fellow friends told him before that Cik Rahman had been bad-mouthing him all this while.Other band members of other groups also had told abah the same thing.

But abah still treat Cik Rahman good.

 

Until to the certain extend,abah cant tolerate with Cik Rahman nonsense when Cik Rahman actually confronted him and Cik Mamat last thursday.

 

Well...I hope things turn out good  in times to comes.

Hahha...i didnt realise that,at that age, Abah have that kind of friend.

Hehehe...Or maybe i can say,Nada Ria have a 2nd keyboardist that so sel-centered?

 

posted by faezahsamidi, 3:12 PM.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

My weekends start off;

attending band practice as usual.

Raining heavily last Saturday.End up asked my

Bapak Love to sent me to CCK CC.Hehehe...

Yessa,im late for practice.

And yes,Abah start questioning me about it.

Ohhhh yaa....Im so used to it..

Not doing much,practice as usual.

Im so loved having Cik Rahman to be around.

He's the best keyboardist ever.

He does spare a thought for others.

Unlike the other person.Its ok if u dont really

know who the other party is.let me the only

one who knows the story ok.Hehe.

After which, i went over to my Abang new house at Woodland.

Yes,they just move in to their new house last month.

But before that,lepak at BIL parents house at Sembawang

while waiting for Abang family to reach home.

So reach their house nearly 10pm. Thought of staying for awhile.

Guess what it took us the whole night

Chit-Chatting,Playing UNO, the kids taking turns to use my Lappy,

took our time having MacD.By the time we wanna end everything,

its already 2am.And the same time BIL having cold,so end up

we stay for a night there.Woohoo~~

Been a long time since we have such moment.

The last time was at Jelapang, Abang's previous house.

Bought them breakfst the next morning.Went over to Mama's place

at Woodland Center with my niece Shanez. Lucky its just nearby.

Asked her to packed some food for everyone, and i bought some pratas.

My Sunday were spend at their house again.

What to do,the same old trick that they will give me.

I wont be able to step out of their house once im there.

I have to entertain their lameness..hahahaha

You might think it would be boring,But when siblings comes together,

its fun and laughter that gonna make ur day.And u gain happiness and

most importantly,the bonding.

posted by faezahsamidi, 1:10 AM.